11.07.2002
ow. ow ow. owowowowowow. ow-ee.
pain. head hurts. hurts to move. hurts to think.
shooting pain in left eye. like a red hot poker, thru to the back of my head.
skin sensitive. hurts to touch anything.
light bad. sound bad. pressure bad.
i want my head to fall off.
pleasepleaseplease make the pain stop. please. make it stop. i want the pain to stop.
can't move without waves of pain, like ripples. i think it's just the head that hurts, but it's in charge today.
left eye feels like a black hole. iris wide open, soaking in every bit of light and spitting out pain.
elephants with cleats stomping on my head. make them stop. make them stop, please?
this pain makes me feel very small. feel like a kid. i want my mom. i want her to make this better.
just take my head off. put it in a box. push all the pain in the box with it.
i can't even feel my body. i'm one giant, throbbing head. and there are rocks in my pillow.
can't even get up to take meds. i don't want to move, send off more waves. if my head won't fall off, please let me go back to sleep. pleasepleaseplease.
please don't let the neighbors come in. make them stay out. don't let them stomp up the stairs. the elephants hurt enough.
i would cry. but i can't. i have to think about breathing.
let me sleep, let me sleep, let me sleep....